I NEED NEW FRIENDS!!!!!!1
Seriously, I think that is the cornerstone of my depression. It's because I don't have enough friends to support me. My family has been awesome and supportive lately, but they can only do so much, y'know. I feel like I missed out on alot of awesome things because I didn't have enough friends to do them with.
And it's not because I'm shy (I'm still am but I'm alot more outgoing than I was two years ago) but I can also be cynical and a huge misanthrope. Like I'm too quick to internally judge people. I don't think I've ever been so wanting of something yet so afraid of at the same time.
But I'm going to a rave in downtown Berkeley tonight so I should meet some new people there. Right? :)
(And btw, Tati, if you're reading this, this is not an attack on you at all. You're awesome and have been an awesome friend all these years. Keep being fierce!)